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I Still Love YouI'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I can only try
But it hurts when you get angry
And you don't say why

You look at me in tears
Sometimes you almost shout
The frustration you bring upon me
The anger you bring out

I'm mad because I care
I want nothing more than to see you smile
I just want to help
And believe me
I'll be here a while

When you cry
My eyes tear at the seams
When you're sad
Rain clouds haunt my dreams

But when you laugh or smile
My lips curl up too
You still just make me so happy, I only wish I could express
How much I still love you.

True ImmortalityDear World,
Hot and cold
Light and dark
Good and bad
Violent and peaceful
Strong and weak
Push and pull
World.
Many walk among you
Many lay deceased
Each and every different from another
All under you, my mother
With the complications of you
World
Where do I stand?
If I were to give you my body
But send my soul away
Would I be forgotten
Or would I be remembered?
Is my mark which stains your soil
Worth merely the memory of friends and family
Or worth the eyes and ears of hundreds
Thousands
Millions
Is my mark to be mortally bound to your beings
Or will it stand immortal among the minds of us all
Oh World
Will I achie

Don't Help AnymoreI'm done
Letting you help
I'm hopeless
I'm gone
You shouldn't have to
Put up with me
You shouldn't have to
Tale the pain
I'm going to break down
Anyone part of the foundation
That helped
When I last fell apart
Will be crushed
Under the weight
And a person can only take so much
So don't help
Don't hurt yourself
Trying to stop me
From hurting me
I'm done
I'm hopeless
I'm gone

There For You

I am the wall
When you need to lean
I am the net
When you start to fall
I am the brace
If you start to break
I am the pillow
to rest your beautiful head
If you start to cry

When everything shifts
Fades in and out
When the world does not stand still
I am there
Wherever your focus may lay
on me or not
I am there
And I will always
Be there

ThoughtsI'm so sick of not being perfect
I'm sick of hurting people
I'm tired of doing nothing right
I'm tired of holding back
Let me scream
Let me lash out
Let me show you the other side of me
And try telling me you still know me

Everything confined inside
It builds until I almost burst
My eyes grow heavy
My fingers claw at my arms
Tear out my hair
Twitch for the blade
I hold back
But I can only hold so much

Then I do it again
I screw up
I hurt
I break
And I fall again
Self-loathing is almost a comfort

I often wonder why
Why am I this way
Why am I messed up
Answers won't be found

I'm sick of hating myself
I'm sick of hidin

Nightmares and fears. Part 3I wake up
In a battle with my own mind
Trying to cling to the good
The happy
Trying to assure myself
There is something good in me
But of course it's buried
Too deep.

Left with the pain of my nightmare
I wipe the tears from my eyes
But I can't wipe away the fear
Of myself.
Some say I'm strong.
I'll take whatever comes my way,
And stand to support those I care about.
I'll take anything thrown at me,
But I'm not strong;
Don't mistake me for strong,
Cause I can't even stand against myself.

The only salvation I have
Is the reminder of the one
Who made me who I am
And first saved me from all this pain.

Loving YouShining bright the stars look down
City lights in the distance
Nature's beauty up close
A cool night with a warm breeze
Brushing us as we kiss.
Your head on my shoulder
A beautiful face in the moonlight

Long our journey has been
And longer it will be
But through thick and thin
We both are there
To come back together
On this night

We've aged and we've grown
Since we first came together
We've loved and we've fought
We've struggled and we've glided
But after all this time
We find ourselves together again
Where some may grow apart
We seem to grow closer

A bumpy road
Of mixed emotions and feelings
For one another and for oth

My Mind Like A ShadowMy Mind Like A Shadow

Dark in the lightest of places
Visible and not
Ignored and forgotten
But still there
Following
Watching
Waiting
Building, one darkness on another
Growing
Until it overwhelms

There's a reason we're scared of the dark

At War With My Own Mind -poem-My head aches with its own actions
It throbs from its own beatings
Thoughts come and go without control
They are nothing but confusing and devastating
Ripping me apart
Throwing me around
It was so much simpler when it was all hate
Hate for myself
Every thought traced back to another fault
Another thing I thought was wrong with me
I believed I didn't deserve the air I breathe
The water I drink
The people that are forced to suffer with my existence in their life
It only got worse and worse
Until the light came from an unlikely source
She was warm and caring
She brought her own side to the fight
To change my mind for the better

I should have seenI try
And I try
To be better
And better
I try to be perfect
I want no fault
All for you

I only wish to be everything
And give you everything
I didn't know
I was hurting you

Again and again
You told me I was fine
There's nothing wrong
I should have understood
And accepted myself

We all have faults
It doesn't mean there's something wrong
I just wanted to reach the impossible
I wanted to be perfect
For you

I'm sorry
I should have seen
You love me
For me

A Moment of ConnectionI walked alone
On a path followed by few
Gently warmed
By the high risen sun
The sounds of nature soft
Little did they touch my ears
And into my thoughts
Where I remembered her face
Her smile
Bright as the day
Gentle as the breeze

I came to a clearing
Not far from the path lay a field
Low cut grass
A river flow just beyond
It was wide and calm
And in the middle sat but two trees
All alone
Away from the rest

Unlike the forest around
The trees had color
Had beauty
Hugging with branches intertwined
Orange and red leaves kissing
The two trees together
Apart from the rest.

What You Do To Me

Imagine your greatest worries just a pebble on the path you walk
Easily forgotten and unnoticed
They bounce around, get pushed aside
And though one may get caught in your shoe,
They seem easier to deal with, temporarily to forever

Imagine your spirits walk high above you
They dance and sing the cheeriest of songs
And the most beautiful
They lift you up by the corners of your mouth
And keep you going

Imagine your head flowing with all your favorite music
Filling your soul with all different feelings
Even the saddest songs seem to keep you up
You walk feeling fresh with the music flowing through you
Like a cool stream that the sun

Goals -the sand and the sieve-Life is too short
Yet every day
Drags, on
Just waiting
For what's next
In such a hurry
To do what we want
And what we need
That we watch the opportunity
Slip away
Trying so hard
Yet unable
To complete
To fulfill
The whole time inching
On, and on
We see it as so far away
So far that we don't even see
When it gets so close
The sand you can't hold onto
In our grasp
Yet slipping away
Forever will it lay
Until we find
A way

New SpringSo calm…
So cool…
The midnight air of new spring
Refreshes my lungs
As I watch the horizon

The woods just beginning to stir
The birds still quiet
Gentle noises mix
With gentle thoughts

The damp grass between my toes
And the cool rock at my back
Only to join
Clear feelings
And emotions

My strum is carried by the wind
So does the next
And the next
Followed by my quiet voice
Echoing in tune
As I sing to greet the season

What is wrong with me?I'm a monster
I'm a freak
Save yourself
Stay away

I lash out
I break
I hurt
I'm sorry

I lost control
For one moment
Pushed over the edge
It was too much

I can't believe it
What is wrong with me?
How could I do this?
It won't happen again

But still stay away
Why not?
Why be near me?
What good is there to hold by?

Theres one light left
One candle
On the outside
To relight the others inside

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by *AutumnNight714, May 10, 2012, 6:22:22 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

A smile,
A laugh,
A hug.
A façade.

Within

A broken world,
A civil war,
A shattered soul,
Of its own destruction.

But further within

A full heart,
A true smile,
A happy me.
Waiting to shine.

Withinby *AutumnNight714

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

©2012-2013 *AutumnNight714

Currently stuck in the dark. Though I must add, this is slightly exaggerated. The bright within does shine through in the right company, on the right day. However, lately had been rough.

I only added the final line as kind of a sign of hope. to show that I'm not too far gone. Originally I only used the three lines, but tried to use words to kinda cover light and happiness more universally. I'm not great at poetry so if anything needs explanation or description I'd be happy to inform.
Also, as a comment chat thing pointed out below, this did turn out a bit lighter and less, depressing, than I intended.

~oakleafninja23 Nov 18, 2012 Student General Artist

I love it.

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*AutumnNight714 Nov 18, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I'm glad, thank you (:

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~oakleafninja23 Nov 18, 2012 Student General Artist

Welcome!

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~AstridSusannah Aug 21, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I like it.
I read it on more of a 'human nature' scale, so I felt as though you were optimistic for the future (:

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*AutumnNight714 Aug 21, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thanks.
Yeah I can see that... well, I didn't really plan it or anything, just kinda happened so maybe my subconscious meant it that way...

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~AstridSusannah Aug 21, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Nah, I like it (:
No worries (:

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*AutumnNight714 Aug 21, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

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~irrenderNarr42 May 11, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

a bit lighter than what you write usually, like it

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*AutumnNight714 May 11, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

haha, yeah I'm not great at poetry... it turned out a lot lighter than I was feeling... a lot...

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~irrenderNarr42 May 11, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

well this one turned out lighter then first intended too [link] ,thats not unusual, but at times it is necessary...and good

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