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I'm a monster
I'm a freak
Save yourself
Stay away

I lash out
I break
I hurt
I'm sorry

I lost control
For one moment
Pushed over the edge
It was too much

I can't believe it
What is wrong with me?
How could I do this?
It won't happen again

But still stay away
Why not?
Why be near me?
What good is there to hold by?

Theres one light left
One candle
On the outside
To relight the others inside
I just... punched a hole in a drywall... I can't even believe it... I'm messed up... I won't name the cause of my anger... I just...what is wrong with me? That's the question... my head is just totally screwed up
I don't know what else to say.. I can't even get mad at myself over this, because that's just feeding the anger... Just have to cry it off...
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thisdudelikeBVBbitch Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Student General Artist
i feel like this sometimes, awesome poem
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rookie2 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
But whatever it is, you are no monster, you are human, and if you look at the rest of the world and the events in the news today about the wars, you are gentle compared to some Countries.
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rookie2 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I you remember the first note I replied to that you sent, I was in a very bad place, now that I go to group therapy, I haven't tried to kill myself since then, also maybe you can't help the sudden anger, is it a disorder? disease? Schizophrenia? Bipolar? Maybe that's what makes you so unique.
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KingRandom64 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Professional Writer
That... reminds me of my past... those words...
so effective... so powerful...
But maybe you should feel good that you managed to get this much feedback!
I learnt in my hard life that although there are bad things, there are good things to keep you moving, (kinda obvious I know).
Well done :)
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AutumnNight714 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much. And yeah I'm really grateful for all the feedback.
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KingRandom64 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Professional Writer
:) No problem, my friend :D.
I'd say you're a natural, you even have a guitar... maybe that's a sign...
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AutumnNight714 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Student Writer
haha I'm not that great at either, trust me haha
thanks for the favorite and watch by te way
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KingRandom64 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Professional Writer
Oh really, I never lie, I mean it!
What was the first emotion you felt when you wrote this?
Anger I guess, or maybe not, either way, emotion strangely makes you see how good you really are at stuff, if that makes sense...
And no problem! :D
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AutumnNight714 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Student Writer
well I always have several emotions going at once, pretty much all the time, unless it's just straight up love. For this, I got mad, and hit a wall... first time, and I really hated myself for it. I hate hurting people, i hate lashing out, i hate even getting angry, that was the only time in my life anyone has actually been able to tell i was pissed off. I usually deal with it all internally, and often take it out on myself. So when I was starting to write this, it was a mixture of regret, self loathing, and sadness really
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KingRandom64 Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Professional Writer
Perfect, well... not perfect, but perfect skill-raising-wise.
I feel the more negative the feel, the more you can express while writing things.
Sorry to hear that by the way...
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